haiz..

haiz.. sometimes reli admire those couples..( with girl action 1st ).. at least call ppl 1st? i mean not everytime she call.. juz im a human too.. sometimes i will 4get to sms or call while im busy. cant she juz call me wad im doin instead of doin suck fucking actions? eg: sms those cold heart, say wad not into her.. i reli beh tahan.. someday i will die coz of stroke... seriously.. i can feel my heart damn pain... hopefully she will chg someday... hopefully...

tell me wad to do.. pls..

again. today my grandma bak frm sg.. past few days, she phoned me say tat she lost rm 50. when she call me i was sleeping, 40% concious. so ihigjer my toned a bit and 'scold; her to be careful next time...... and u know wad she does next. AMAZINGLY, SHE DON WANNA BOTHER ME FOR 2 DAYS. gosh.. call her not to be so careless = DIE. say sorry = DIE. say my fault = DIE.. I RELI WANNA DIE! my grandma here bising = DIE + DIE. ok tat one nvm. today when i bak home i called her wad shes doin. she say she juz cooked lunch, haven eat. so i juz say ok den shut the hp,thought we will have lunch at the same time. as usual. while im eating i wont sms ppl.. during tat time.. she sent me a FUCKING msg saying wad heart cold . i reli wanna throw my hp tat time. y i could love such person. i reli don understand... den now she send me those stupid msg. saying me not care her, not into her. if im doin so . y would i do so much to her?????? fucking idiot. teach me how to do pls.. btw im not going to break wif her. i reli duno how to do. feel like dying..

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keep go with guys... wad will u think if i keep go wif girls? alone..?